Initial M!oon

there’s something wrong with the gv booking engine thingie

was trying to check the movie listings and there dont seem to be any session on sep 1..think they haven load the timings yet i guess…ill try

anyway..to yy..think we’ll be watchin at marina square ba..we watch early show..u wanna join me go shoppin after dat? haha..

its jus a normal dae todae at sch..nothin special nothin unusual, unless u count simin cutting hair until very short as unusual..

by the way, i put my name down for the econs seminar..! i actualli paid 8 dollars for this seminar which im not sure if its goin to be dumb..but tang lao shi got sae b4 we mus give the speaker a chance, and not deny him unless we hear what he has to say..so yah, thats y my name is dere…

and its hopeless trying to think that jiamin might consider goin with me once she read how ke lian i am in this blog..since she hates econs like hell..lol

im strugglin with physics tys..wanna finish it fast.

then i can start readin maya.

im addicted. happily addicted.

im reachin the end, and the journey is gettin excitin..

im reachin the truth……..

took this colorgenics test recommended by yy since she keeps insisting on her blog that my mood will be +ve de..and tada..here are the results:

your colors: 5 4 1 3 7 2 0 6

You are in a state of constant expectation and want interesting and exciting things to happen to you. But in fact, you are a ‘Walter Mitty’ at times - a dreamer - over-imaginative and often given to fantasy or day-dreaming. There is nothing wrong in ‘dreaming’ - how boring life would be if one just followed the doctrines of everyday life - but one must not continue leading a life of continuous fantasy. You need to face reality in spite of all its possible shortcomings.

Always anxious to accept the role of the leader, as indeed you often work well with people - but try to stay out of the limelight. You’d like a life of ease with no one to rock the boat and someone who understands you is so important in your life.

The present situation, not of your making, is forcing you to compromise. You will have to hold back and forgo some of your hopes, dreams and aspirations.

You are holding back. You need to find friends in whom you can trust and once they have proved themselves beyond all possible doubt you will be prepared to give them your all. The existing situation is not of your liking - you have an unsatisfied need for mental stimulation with others whose standards are as high as your own. Trying to control your instincts the way you do restricts your ability to open up to others and the way you feel at this time is suggestive of ‘total surrender’. This is not to your liking as you consider such thoughts as weaknesses that need to be overcome. You feel that only by control, controlling your innermost thoughts, are you able to maintain your air of superiority. You want to be admired for yourself alone and not for what you can do or for what you may have done. In essence ‘you need to be needed’ and at the same time ‘you need to need’.

You are greatly impressed by individuality and have interest in people who have outstanding qualities. You try to imitate those people that you admire and their characteristics, hoping that you will be able to display similar qualities in your own personality.

omg..its damn accurate and sorri, mine’s not extremely positive lah..but it fits my mood now. extremely.

yes, im living in a life of fantasy, and im constantly daydreamin. i think it’s all because of jostein gaarder’s books that i’ve been readin now. it makes me reflect on the wonders of life and i don’t know why, there’s always this strange feeling of acknowledgement with the author as though i’ve ploughed myself in the fantasy world of his. everything about evolution, about the mighty universe, even about men’s daily longing, feelings, thoughts..it makes me wonder how come my life is jus liddat? is it jus liddat? it makes me expect more.

and yes, im always so anxious to asssume the role of a leader. that’s extremely true too. and yes i do like being the limelight and the msg is for me to get out of it i guess. hmm, someone to understand me, i think at this moment, maybe im the one who understands myself most, no one else.

and all those about admiration i want from others and the friends i need, is true to a very large extent. one reason i could start forgettin all bout lala is also because of this. somehow i need someone realli confident and someone realli intellectual to provide me with that mental stimulation. i want intelligent conversations. i want interaction that can stimulate my thinking. dat person will deserve all the love he can get. but where is he?

and that about me being impressed by those with outstanding abilities, and me mimicking them, i do not deny. because these people realli deserves the respect. and frankly there are little of them around. i’ve seen some people with characters and abilities i really do agree with but i have to say there’s a lack of them. even myself. i don’t think im really great too. but i like to feel great.

haha. i love the results.

teacher’s dae duty yesterday was quite fun.

dunno why also.

think is because we had 4 photographers on standby yesterdae. diew

dunno wad i tokin.

im realli bored.

its gonna be a boring weekend.

i watched valiant yesterdae. can’t sae it’s really nice lah. but not bad loh.

at least i din Zzzzz…

but there was no subtitles and i was straining to listen since those birds have really weird accents.

sum even speak french haha.

alot of cliche plots u see on tv cartoon lah. like the bird fly fly fly and bang on the wall, and they expect u to luff. haahaaa

but nvm loh. 8 bucks nia mah. tee hee.

anyway, i got sophie kinsella’s undomestic goddess yesterdae from popular. was deciding how to spend my 12 bucks voucher fr harry potter sales. wanted the zahir, but decided against it, because it’s cover not nice, and when i buy books, the cover is a huge factor too.

if it’s not nice, i might as well borrow fr the library, why buy?

anyway, econs is getting tough, banking? urgh.

it’s teachers’ dae celebrations tomorrow..that means it’s a half day. yeah!:):):)

and it’s slippers day too and we are allowed to go to sch in home clothes

im wearin my new ebase top..haha. coz they want colourful tops. to fit the theme: lumos

and im on duty for photog tml. finalli its my turn.!.!

actually quite like doing event phototaking. coz can walk around dun have to juz sit there. hope ill get sum interesting shots tomorrow.

anyway, since it’s teachers’ day..i  wanna wish mr v (the evacute weirdo photog teacher of ours), mrs kitty tan (lao3 mao1..haha), ms yee (the damn smart maths teacher of mine), all lep teachers (coz all of them rox), mrs lee (…erm..reluctantly..although she’s quite suaning..but she’s teach me quite a lot about econs lah), and of coz KWEK KWEK KWEK KWEK a happy happy teachers’ day! i miss him.

but can’t go back for teachers’ day. there’s no half day on 31st le.

anyway, on teachers’ day, the actual day, which is thurs, which is 31st aug, there’s gonna be a np outing watch the maid wor, so those reading take note, and keep yaself free okaex..

one good news to share: chung cheng c boys are champs again.!!yes!! again!! so proud of them. and colin is the mvp. meaning there’s gonna be 2 mvps in nxt yr’s b boys. omg. then we’ll get champ again!! haha..:O

i saw the winning entries for heritage fest le..the 1st price one is damn nice lah. of the expression of this shopkeeper in a mamashop. mine can’t beat that. but nvm its an experience and i’ll continue learning and joining more competitions.

by the way, i’ll flunk that physics test we had todae. coz, basically, to be frank, din study much for it. was watching superstar yesterdae, and i went to bed like so earli, wadya expect? and i think that was realli bad of me, and it’s a bad attitude towards learning, and im telling myself, no more repeats. and i heard that, yah, promise myself, no more repeats. and i’ll try really hard to stick by that promise.

since im really a good student.

boohoo..the title fits now

my new bangs has been criticised to look retarded by dean and gang..

urgh

i dont believe it.

i still love my short bangs. they are cool.

THEY ARE COOL

but im jus so tired of styling my hair sia.

mornin wake so earli, no energy.

I LOVE MY BANGS.

no matter what they say.

luckily adeline din sae anything much, and i quite trust her lah. so, haha, 1 vote for my hair, i guess?

too bad if u guys don’t like it, i cut my hair also not for you all. it’s for the pleasure of lookin at it in the mirror everydae, and thinkin, my bangs are beautiful..

there’s a recent poll that reveals that in singapore, only 3 % of women think they are beautiful. i’ll add on. im beautiful.

anyway, if u all read the prev entry, im ok now. i have no right not to be ok.

been eatin bananas for the past few daes. haha. call me monkey.

that kay hwa guy has reply. but now im in no mood to care about his damn book. sorry.

i realli have the shoppin urge nowadaes. nothing is enuff.

XXX
gettin myself sorted out..in process..
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oh no..

jus read cherry’s blog

and i think im cursed. yes, cursed.

cursed like that joanna in the story.

i juz said i realli missed cherry.

i jus realli hoped that she would be back.

and i think judging fr her blog entries, she’s gonna be back soon.

and it’s not sumthing good i think.

i don’t realli know what’s happened, and i don’t think i should probe further.

but im worried about her.

the talk about deferments, about her stopping sch and abt her problems. i realli hope she’s fine.

and now another of my friends’s in trouble.

im cursed.

i don’t know what to do. anyway, i can’t do much. we’re in 2 different countries.

i really hope i was there for her. although i think i won’t be much help. im always not much help as a friend.

im not a good listener. and i don’t know what to say even if u confide in me.

i don’t have the right words and i can be damn damn so insensitive at times.

and i let emotions control me, i cant think logically and if ur sad, u’ll most probably make me sad, and then i’ll make u more sad, it becomes this vicious cycle.

im feelin realli bad about myself now.

i dunno. i realli jus dunno.

u see, here i am, cant do anything to help, jus know how to type type and type in this stupid blog.

ARGH!

see im gettin emotional again. and im typin emotionally but im still sittin calmly in front of the monitor.

what’s wrong with me?

and now im thinkin there’s sumthing wrong with me when its my friend’s lives that are down in the dumps, not me. i have a less than perfect life, yes. but, its enough for anyone.

no more complaints, moon.

my friends, hang on. i’ll be there for u, shortly, in a moment, pls?

juz finish readin the online chapters by low kay hwa..

he’s a singapore poly student and is a budding writer lah.

and i actualli cried when readin his story.

ok..cut the actualli, i cry at almost anything.

but, it’s not bad, considered him being an amateur writer.

good job and write on!

and im realli curious about the last few chapters. think im goin to email him and get the books from him

it’s 15.90 bucks for two books, i believe u and also destiny’s cries, his first book

he’s actualli startin on his third already. and im waitin…

haha, trust me to get so excited over a local writer

but i think we realli need such talent. and such talent with courage to come up with a book himself.

anyway, i’ve got short bangs now. go cut hair at heatwave marina todae.

haha. din see bryan wong. too bad. see whether his abs on the shopfront’s photo is real notx

anyway, the rates are reasonable lah. got my cut for jus 28 bucks by a creative director, could be 21 bucks if it’s done by just a senior stylist.

but should play safe.

i like my bangs.

but dont know what the others think of it.

will ask them on mondae.

the ebase in marina rox lah. scooped some good buys.

and i got myself new earrings.

haha, shopaholic.

and im sick.

realli sick.

im sick and i still go shopping. hopeless rite?

and im feelin a bit breathless lah, dunno whether my asthma will act up anot? but shld be wun rite? urgh

think i’ll jus sleep thru u, pray all is gone tml morning.

yucks. its gonna be homework dae tml.

anyway, chatted with jon. jiayou boy! continue workin hard and dun give up on yr dreams..ur everything..

u still have us, ur dear friends..

sleep tite tonite.

hmm…hate to see my friends unhappy.

liyuan too…dun feel bad le okok…and if u have anything weighing on yr mind, juz call me..sorri about that dae, couldnt chat long with u, but i’ll try as much as i can ok.

hmm….im missing cherry too…wonder how’s she’s doin?

and i miss the vege curry at cchm…

One of my fav shots.

Look, the focus here isn’t on the cute little gal. it’s on the cutest scdf guy on earth. gosh. and u could actualli catch a glimpse of his nametag. read: mohd faizal. omg omg.

another of my fav. this little boy sure is handsome.

actualli tot that this army guy here has a side view that looks a tad bit like phileo..haha

look at simin singing majulah singapura with such zest. dotx.

fr left: simin, kanghua, me. credits to marcius. urgh, my double chin!!!

there were actualli fireworks at the carnival. couldn’t believe my eyes. and stupid me, din even have all the necessary equipments, so that was the best the picture could be. urgh.

i call him the best face in the mobile forum. look at that S symbol on his forehead, wonder if u all can see it. wow.

ok..anyway, here are jus sum of the photos lah, to share loh.

there’s actualli much more, but im sharing sum interesting one nia. but the carnival realli rox. best ndp spent since p5 which was at the stadium. the atmosphere was infectious. got quite high lah. a huge sea of red. and the roti prata i bought fr one of the food stalls was superb. although the mobile forum took such a long time dat i was almost fallin asleep. and i din have my external flash, so the photos at nite all turned out urgh. but well, fun dae it was. hope next yr would be even beta

went watch seven swords yest.

marvellous swordplay..love the seven swords, esp the dragon (you long jian)..the carving is damn intricate. and omg cool.

and there’s duncan starring. and he’s so handsome. he stars as mulang , one of the seven swordsmen.

aiyah, i say liddat also no use, go watch it for urself.

b4 the movie, we had like 1 long hr left, so go play bowling.

and dean was like so throw face..his total for 2 games both less than 40 loh, although i wasn’t much betta. and for his last bowl, the ball dropped on the floor and roll backwards loh, juz because he was luffin at rit (the cchs co pro) tryin to act pro at bowling

anyway, go watch the show lah.

and im strugglin to finish pw chpt 3.

urgh, such a difficult chpt i doin.

come on man, jiayou!

trying to upload the fotos for tamp ndp carnival right now.

later place some on the blog..those dat i like ba..kk…wait ah…….its like takin damn long

until then, ciaoz